trying to swallow the sun

I gotta post again or this thing's going straight to the shadows never to be seen again.
Yesterday I talked to a TX cowboy on the phone. He told me that when you get to be his age you realize that life is a vapor. I really appreciated him telling me that. I want to hear these things from older people so I can't start living the real life now and not have to figure it all out on my own. But I bet I'll still have to figure that one out on my own - that life is short and I don't need to spend it worrying about my reputation or my clothes. He also said we're all here for only one thing...to serve God, worship him, know him. It seemed so simple. It sounded good. He said if you make any difference in anyone's life it's all been worth it. i cried. i mean i teared up. i didn't expect to hear all the stuff he said. I wish more older people would tell us the stuff they've learned. My ears are open.



Yesterday I also saw the sun go down over a Texas field. It was the biggest ball of dark orange and it was crystal clear around the edges. And it made my heart ache. If only we were made to take in something so beautiful. It hurts when we see it bc we can't take it in. Not til later anyway. I almost want to swallow it up and have it become a part of me. Same thing with my 11 month old neice. She's so adorable and I love her so much I just want to swallow her up. Sounds gross, but I know you know what I'm talking about. We're not just supposed to look at stuff and that be the end of it. Same with music I think. There are barriers, but there is hope they'll will be removed one day. We're gonna actually take it all in.
(photo by Ian Britton)